love is...

I fail at love so often, and each time I fail I feel miserable. I try so hard, and then I get annoyed and I say something that's not loving, or I get too easily angered, or I say something I shouldn't, or I act out selfishly. It's so frustrating to so easily be so selfish and not loving. How weak I truly am! I will truly fail if I try to love on my own. But I will continue striving for love. I will love my family, I will love Ben the way he truly deserves, I will love my friends, I will love my coworkers, and I will love even strangers, even those who do not love me. I will try. I will not always succeed, but I am learning. How badly I wish to be completely loving. How wonderful a world we would live in if this is what we all aimed for.