being the rock

The funny thing about a blog is that it's not with me all the time. Ideas always come to me when I'm driving, or doing something mundane at work that doesn't require any intelligence. Unfortunately, I don't have a laptop with me at all times. 

My dad isn't doing too well these days, and it's quite and interesting time here at the Williams' household (please don't call him saying I said he was sick and asking him if he's okay, it will seriously make him worse, though the thought is nice). I find myself in yet another position where I am not allowed to be affected by what's happening. I have to be strong and not show that I might be worried, or stressed about anything. If I mess up at all, it makes things worse. This is what happens when you're the stable one in your family and you need people to lean on you. If I miss a class, or do poorly on something, or am late for work, or I'm grumpy, or tired, all of this could just make my dad worse (I am not kidding). Therefore, all this grumpy, tired, stressed that I might be experiencing, has to just not happen right now. Honestly, I don't appreciate this position. I think it's extremely unfair, and probably very unhealthy for me (as I've been told...), but it's what has to be done right now, and it's been done in the past, and will continue to be done. Anything stressful or upsetting is saved for times when no one is around. I'm glad my family can count on me, and that me being strong for them is helpful, but can't they pick someone else?

I'm not complaining. It's just hard. But then again, I could be in my dad's position, which is obviously a million times worse. So I'll just pray for him, and put on a brave face. 

Keep him in your thoughts and prayers. But again, please don't call. :)

"i'm a mac"...

i guess i fit the whole blogging thing now. i have a mac! i'm wicked excited about it. if you think macs are too hard to use...you're wrong. and they're just...lovely. I don't know if lovely is necessarily a good adjective, but I tend to use it when i am excited about something and can't figure out any other word to use.

Fall took a long time to finally arrive, but it is now beautiful outside. I have yet to go apple picking, which would complete my autumn experience, but I'll let it slide for now. Driving through windy back roads is one of my favorite things, because I am surrounded by orange, yellow, and red leaves. I think yellow leaves might be my favorite, which I find odd. I like red when it sticks out against a neutral setting, and I love red leaves. But yellow leaves seem to pop and draw attention to them. They're awesome. There was a tree in the friendly's parking lot in holden, and all of its leaves turned yellow at the same time. It stuck out so much, and when I drove by it, I always wished I could take a picture. Unfortunately, I could not safely drive in holden traffic and take a picture of a beautiful tree, so I didn't take one. If i did, i would definitely post it. maybe next year...

"Spread love everywhere you go. Let no one come to you without leaving happier"

and so it begins...

Normally when I think of blogging, I picture someone wearing plastic framed glasses (you know, those thicker, artsy kinds?), sitting at a table in starbucks on their mac. They're wearing some chic outfit listening to music no one has heard of, writing about...i don't even know. That's why I've avoided this for so long. I felt like I didn't really qualify for this kind of blogging world. But...I have plastic rimmed glasses, and I like starbucks and chic outfits, and i like some music no one has heard of (okay, a few people have), so I guess I qualify. I would like a mac to go with all of this, but that of course is just a dream.

I doubt this will be anything interesting, but i'll try to keep it relatively entertaining, and hopefully I'll keep most of my deep thoughts to myself (yes, they happen regularly...life gets boring, so i think). Enjoy....or don't :)



I don't particularly have anything else to say today, except that my manager keeps coming to work grumpy and i don't like getting scolded for things that are someone else's fault. My car has also taken a week to get fixed, just for brackets being broken. My dad's car get's 15.6 mpg (that is exact...it has this thing that tells me...his car is wicked high tech). Mine gets about 30. Which one would you rather drive everyday?